SURPRISE! That's exactly what you were... and the best surprise of my life :) Daddy and I had been trying for several months but had decided to stop for a while - which, of course, is when God decided to bless us with you. He has a funny sense of humor like that. You'll learn that as you grow up and get to know Him.
I had a funny hunch on Wednesday, September 15, 2010 that I should check to see if you were making a new home in my tummy. Since I wasn't expecting you I took the test assuming it would be negative like it had been the previous 6 months. I even walked away from it and went to warm up my lunch thinking I would just come back and throw the negative test away when the timer was up. But you were ready for your big debut!
I was so shocked when I saw the second line that I couldn't say anything except "Oh my gosh............" over and over again for 5 minutes straight. I was at the office by myself, so when I calmed down enough I called a friend and sent her a picture of the test to make sure I was seeing it correctly. I still couldn't believe it so I took another test which obviously had the same result! I left work early because I couldn't wait to tell your Daddy. On the way home I picked up a bib that said, "Daddy's Sweetie" and wrapped it. I also wrapped the two positive tests just in case the bib wasn't a big enough hint. It's a good thing I did because Daddy just thought I had picked up something cute for the future when he saw the bib... It wasn't until he opened the tests that reality hit him and he had a similar reaction to the one I had at work just a couple of hours before.
I made an appointment with the doctor for the following day just to make sure you were doing okay. I was so excited that I couldn't sleep and woke up at 4 AM the following morning. The wee hours of the morning have always been a special time between God and me, but Thursday morning was especially sweet. I laid in bed still in shock that you were really there and just thanked Him over and over for entrusting me with such a special gift. I prayed for your safety and health, and for God to give your Daddy and me the wisdom to raise you in a way that's pleasing to Him. I still pray for you every second of every day.
I had been experiencing some cramping (another reason I was completely shocked at your arrival) and brought it up to the doctor. She assured me that it was completely normal and that it actually meant my body was working the way it should to make your new home more comfortable. I still freak out with every twinge and cramp I have because the thought of anything happening to you is devastating. I'm trying very hard to rely on the knowledge that God is in control and He has you in His hands no matter what, but my protective instincts are incredibly strong. You're only four and a half weeks old and the size of a poppy seed, so I can't help but try to do everything as delicately as possible to keep you safe.
Daddy is also doing everything he can to take care of both of us. He researched good foods that will make you strong and smart, and went grocery shopping while we took a nap. He also cleaned/moved the kitty litter so we don't catch any bugs that will make us sick. He checks up on us throughout the day and makes sure we're getting enough rest. He's a good Daddy - you're going to like him :)
You're doing weird things to my body, but you can do whatever you want with it! I know I've only known you for 4 days but I already love you more than words can express. I'm praying for you constantly and I promise I will do everything in my power to make your new home as nurturing as possible for the next 9 months!
I love you always!
Love,
Mommy
Yep! That is my wife and my baby!!! Luckiest husband/father in the world!
ReplyDeleteCONGRATULATIONS!!!!!! I am SOOOOO excited! Audriella is excited too, she's getting a cousin!!! I'm looking forward to reading your Blog, pregnancy is amazing!
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